I sure never blog anymore do I? Oh well, the whole point of blogging was really for me to keep a record of things going on in my life anyway so I can look back at this one day and think aww, this was me a few years ago and this is what I went through.
So let’s see, what’s new?
I’m more obsessed with Lady Gaga than ever, I love love loveeeee her!
My two week break from school just ended and so I’m back to my hellhole, fun times indeed.
Although during my two weeks I went for Angie’s 17th birthday party, which included a suprise dinner with her, followed by a limo ride and ended by some clubbing. It was awesome except the clubbing part, the music was kinda bleh, the people well…eh, same old same old overall fun experience though.
Oh and a couple of days after her party I WENT TO CANCUN!
Met up with Ohmar, Cesawr, their darling mum, Raul and Aline.
I can’t describe how awesome an experience that was and I can’t possibly nor will I ever be able to explain how I was allowed to go on this trip considering it involved nothing but me and what were according to my parents pretty much “complete strangers” at the time but I’m so glad that by some miracle of the world it worked out.
The whole time I was there I couldn’t help but continue to think about how if it weren’t for the Internet I wouldn’t be there and I’d have most probably never met these amazing people whom I happen to consider a couple of my closest friends in the entire world. Made me see just how a computer screen really isn’t that much of a barrier when it comes to true compatibility. I spent a week with these people and I never once felt like an outsider, if anything I felt they were family. We did so many adventurous fun things, things I’d probably never get the chance to do with my own family, which is why I guess I appreciated it so much more, because it was genuinely my first time experiencing them.
And at the end of that week it’s funny how much I dreaded that goodbye just because I knew that at this point it would hurt me, the same way it hurt when Daphne left to England, the same way it’s going to hurt when I graduate and I’ll have to face the fact that my friends and I are all going our own separate ways in life. It’s really that uncertainty of what lies ahead which terrifies me but at the same time I guess it’s the same thing which gives me so much to look forward to.
And as much as it might have hurt me to deal with those goodbyes (as much as I might despise them) I knew it wasn’t so much a goodbye but more of a so long. And if I could go back in time and change it, I’d do it all again exactly the same way, no regrets. That’s just a chance you have to take when you decide to love, best part is I’ve never had the chance to love beyond that family and friend level, I can’t even imagine how crushed I would be if I were to be susceptible to the possible pain romantic relationships bring with them, which is exactly why I feel I’m just not ready yet.
I mean really in the end, all you’ve got is your family and your friends, they’ve made you who you are and they continue to shape you into who you’re going to be and as much as we’d like to think that we’re strong and independent in this world deep down we know that we’re fragile and dependent beings. We must face it and move on…
And so, “That’s the way the cookie crumbles”
(if you didn’t get that reference you SO fail 
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