I haven’t been up to much honestly…All this time off, one would think it’s a good opportunity to do something productive and make use of one’s time but all I do is wake up late, eat, fool around on my pc, watch tv shows with my mum from time to time, go to the gym on weekdays for a couple of hours, come back home, eat, fool around more on my pc and go to bed late.
I always start off my school breaks thinking I’m going to do this and that but the truth is, when it comes down to doing it, idunno I just don’t feel the pull anymore. I said I was gonna take Hindi classes, driving classes (starting next week), stitching classes and that I was going to discover what I wanted to do with my life which I haven’t even got around to doing just yet. Partly because I have this fear of not really coming up with anything and realizing I have no future, I’m not particularly good at anything and I’m going to end up leading a mediocre life with mediocre things and mediocre people. I know it sounds so pathetic to think that I actually feel this way but I can’t help it.
Not to mention these past few days, I’ve been thinking about how nice it would be if I had a love life…And it makes me sad to think I might not have one for a while… I guess we’ll see with time. I just hope this year turns out to be more productive for me somehow, in the sense that, if I discovered my calling, and that calling just happened to be one that will bring me lots of money and happiness…I would consider this year to be a total sucess. Everything else would just fall into place sooner or later, or at least I’d like to think so. I have nothing but hope to keep me going.
I think my next post will be about my trip, that way I can incorporate pics and make my blog a little easier on the eyes ^^
Nighty Night
